The first thing I noticed when I turned 40 was that I started falling apart!! Honestly my head down to my toes began to fall apart.
It started with my mind, at least I think it did, I am not sure, because I started to forget, I came to realize that my mind wasn't as sharp as before. Small little things started to be forgotten, things like sending a card in the mail for a birthday, writing down an appointment on the calendar & then remembering after I was clear across town that I had to be at the school for a program for one of the children...NOT a good sign. I nearly walked out of the house one day without my shirt on, honestly that is when I knew that it might be time to succumb to making a list of how to get ready for the day & make a million copies of it, posting it all over the house, so as not to forget where I put it or miss a step - but I FORGOT to make the list, because I couldn't remember that I wanted to do it. So every morning I hope that when I arrive at my destination I am fully clothed! (So far, so good).
I have been more tired than I ever remember being when my children were small & waking me up every two hours for a feeding. My energy level started to decrease, I was not going to blame 'energy' because it is my choice to be up every morning at 4:15(that would be in the AM hours, not PM folks!!!) to be at the gym prior to going to work, where I spent endless hours listening to children tell me how they didn't want to learn anything that day or tell me that so and so picked on them out on the play ground....oh the joys of being a substitute teacher.
I am sure that it wasn't energies fault that the good housekeeping fairy flew right past my house EVERY single day, forgetting (she is over 40, so she suffers from memory loss too) that in my house laundry needed to be done, the dishes washed, walls wiped & toilets cleaned...I guess I forgot that it didn't magically happen without a little bit of energy spent on it.
I also have found that I am tired of being the culinary whiz at thinking & creating amazing meals for the natives in my home. It is funny how restless they get when they are not fed on an hourly basis (if you think I am kidding, you don't have 4 male beings sharing the same living space!!)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Never knew....
...back when I was growing up (wait, I think I am still working on that phase in my life), I considered 40 to be OLD!! As in "over the hill", "one foot in the grave", grey hair & unruly wrinkles...get me a walker & denture cream old...but guess what? It isn't quite that bad, YET!!!
There are a few things that are true about turning 40 that I am not liking, but for the most part the past 9 months haven't been all that bad and now that I am looking at turning 41 in less than 3 months, 40 feels young, 41 now feels old.
I have been wanting to write a book titled "I didn't think 40 would feel like this", hitting on points that I have felt as I have approached & journeyed through the first year (nearly) of being 40...but a book feels overwhelming & very, very tiring, so I decided to try it out here, on this blog, just to see if I can create enough to compose a book, who knows, you may just be reading the NEXT New York Best seller & you did it for free....
So I am going to take a shot at this, letting you in on some of my thoughts (now mind you that this is a ROUGH draft of a book, some of it may be feelings of the day & not really pertain to my title of being 40, so bear with me), I want POSITIVE, NON-CHEESE, NON-GASSY comments; truth, suggestions, no input on my being way off base....so if you can't give me that, PLEASE email me & let me know, so that I can ignore you & your comments!!
SOME posts will take several days to complete, because quite frankly I can't really spend more than about 20 minutes a day, nor do I WANT to spend a lot of time on it, if I do, I will hate it, I don't want to hate it....also it may read like my brain works, -- scattered!!! (Besides it is only a rough draft, some days may be rougher to read than others....ha ha) So there may be posts that are started, not to be finished for several days, weeks or even months...I am my boss, the boss of this blog & I can't wait to do with it whatever I want...GO ME!!!
Looking forward to taking this journey with me, my thoughts & I!!
There are a few things that are true about turning 40 that I am not liking, but for the most part the past 9 months haven't been all that bad and now that I am looking at turning 41 in less than 3 months, 40 feels young, 41 now feels old.
I have been wanting to write a book titled "I didn't think 40 would feel like this", hitting on points that I have felt as I have approached & journeyed through the first year (nearly) of being 40...but a book feels overwhelming & very, very tiring, so I decided to try it out here, on this blog, just to see if I can create enough to compose a book, who knows, you may just be reading the NEXT New York Best seller & you did it for free....
So I am going to take a shot at this, letting you in on some of my thoughts (now mind you that this is a ROUGH draft of a book, some of it may be feelings of the day & not really pertain to my title of being 40, so bear with me), I want POSITIVE, NON-CHEESE, NON-GASSY comments; truth, suggestions, no input on my being way off base....so if you can't give me that, PLEASE email me & let me know, so that I can ignore you & your comments!!
SOME posts will take several days to complete, because quite frankly I can't really spend more than about 20 minutes a day, nor do I WANT to spend a lot of time on it, if I do, I will hate it, I don't want to hate it....also it may read like my brain works, -- scattered!!! (Besides it is only a rough draft, some days may be rougher to read than others....ha ha) So there may be posts that are started, not to be finished for several days, weeks or even months...I am my boss, the boss of this blog & I can't wait to do with it whatever I want...GO ME!!!
Looking forward to taking this journey with me, my thoughts & I!!
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